Australian Summers and odd Revelations

 Hi Girls,
Australian summers are so irritating I dislike this time of year so much. I know funny an Australian that hates summer but honestly if you lived in Australia from december till march/late April you would know why I hate it so much. the heat just takes away all your energy all you want to do is lie on the floor under the air-con and never get up. 

which is one of the reasons I haven't been on here at all this month its too hot to do anything but i am trying, the heat is just a bit much at times. I will post a intake and exercise post later on this week I have changed my routine a bit in hope of reaching a my new goal weight but ill talk to you about that later.

 

-Name's Have Been Changed-

I have noticed recently that my freind Hanna and I have a really odd habit of talking about eating disorders when we are together no matter what we may be doing we always end up talking about them at one point during conversation with one another its a strange thing we do when we are together... I dont really know what that says about us but its just a strange thing I just recently notice we do.

other than that there is not a lot I can think of I need to tell you other than I kissed B on the check last week and I don't know if I have made a mistake or not by doing that but he still texts me so I dont think I have made a complete fool of myself yet..

any ways good byes for now
~Love Anna.

Hi girls,
spring is here in Australia, winter gone again for another year.

I've been invited to a party in November, my ex-girlfriend is going to be attending aswell and personally I want to look way better than her. which wouldn't take much as she is obese and I am not been a bitch by that she is 155cm tall and weighs 223kg/491.63lbs. When we were dating I sometimes went with her to her doctor appointments, her doctor was getting really desperate about her losing weight that's how bad it was getting... my ex never really took what the doctor was saying seriously.

She got really angry when I agreed with her doctor over her (I didn't call her fat or anything like that I just told her I was generally scared of losing her to health complications caused by her disorder) she couldn't understand why we were both worried about her weight. its funny thinking about it we were complete polar opposites she was short/fat and I was average height/"healthy" weight in comparison the one thing we both had in common was our eds she ate too much and I ate restrictively/too little.

but anyway I've strayed pretty far away from the point which is by November:

• I want to weight less than 60kg/132.27lbs
• I would like my waist to be smaller.
• I want to see a gap between my thighs
• I want to see my ribs fully again before home cooked Italian meals were introduced to me

In relation to my ex-girlfriend I never want to go back there ever. seriously she is the definition of  crazy ass Bitch. I've met some far from sane people in my life, out of all of them she is diffidently at the top of the ladder for crazy. I'll tell you the full story another time its way to big and complicated to put into words at the moment.

My Intake this week 

12th September

total intake - 394cals

burned - 28km run, 1488cals (over did it)

left over - minus 1590cals

13th September

total intake - 617cals

burned - 2 hour walk,722cals

left over - minus 105cals

14th September

total intake:867cals

burned:2 hour walk.722cals

left over:145cals

 

15th September

total intake:711cals

burned: 10km jog,722cals

left over:minus 11

16th September

total intake:765cals

burned:3 hour walk,1083cals

left over:minus 318cals

17th September

total intake:683cals

burned:2 hour jog,868cals

left over:minus 185cals

I have to say I am pretty surprised that there are 10 of you now, I never really thought when I started this that any one would ever sit down and read my ramblings, Thank you for all your support and your comments :]
                    lots of love,
                                    Anna<3

Drifting Far Away

I can't seem to concentrate today, I feel like I'm drifting far away... I attempted to do the work we were set to do in class today but really couldn't focus much on what we were doing in so De and myself packed up early not much just 15minutes before the end of class. I tried to my homework  when I got home but made way to many mistakes so Ill have to redo it tomorrow...

I'm beginning to suspect one of my uni friends has an ed she is tiny as hell she weighs way less than 30kg/66.13lbs... she told our group randomly last week that she needs to lose weight the other girls tried to tell her otherwise but she brushed it off and said it was for health reasons which is bull if she lost any more weight she would be nothing.There really is nothing anyone can do to change her views of herself our group has tried I just hope it doesn't end in the emergency ward... I suspect she thinking the same about me as well due to some things she said and asked me in private these last two weeks...

My Intake This week so far

Monday

Breakfast: 

Nothing

Lunch:

Double Dare coffee espresso-210cals

Dinner:

Home made spaghetti Bologna- 250cals

orange juice-110cals

total Intake:570cals

burned: 1hr walk-236cals

left over: 334cals

Tuesday

Breakfast

Nothing

Lunch:

Greek yoghurt- 123cals

Dinner:

2 x small tempura fish- 250cals

small portions of wedges-102cals

orange juice-110cals

total Intake:585cals

burned: 2 hr walk - 471cals

left over: 114cals

Edit:UPDATE rest of the week

Wednesday

total Intake - 852cals

burned - 10km jog,1157cals
3 hours dancing with mates: 837cals

left over: minus 1142

Thursday

total Intake - 608cals

burned - 40 minute jog,289cals
1 hour walk - 361cals

left over -  minus 42cals

Friday

Total intake - 345cals

burned - 1 hour jog,434cals

left over - minus 89cals

10th-11th September forgot to write down what I ate

 

Hope you all have a lovely week :]
                                           Lots of love,
                                                              Anna <3

a little bit busy

Sorry I haven't been posting recently, I'm just a tad bit caught up in a lot things at the moment and don't really have the time to post as often as I once did.

 
I'm currently back at uni continuing my 2nd semester of fashion  design,  I'm in my 2nd year of study so its a bit hands on. The other second years and myself are still in the process of organising our fashion parade for the end of year. I don't know if I've mentioned it or not but our theme is "Punk Cabaret" (a combination of burlesque and punk) we have to design and construct 4 outfits which consists of one show stopper and 3 full outfits. On top of that we have to so a lot of organising which consists of fund raising, sorting out models, make up/hair, finding a place to have the parade. food/drinks, music/performers/lighting and staging/seating for the parade. We are about half way through sorting out most of these things we only have left music,catering, fund raising, models and make up/hair.

I'm also currently in the processes of applying to do costume design at one of two performing arts academy's in Australia which is keeping me on my toes. I have to construct a portfolio consisting of everything I've done over the last couple of years from garments to costumes to beading/jewellery pieces to millinery work and design processes I've gone through to create each piece. Along with two 500 word essays on why I would like to study costume design and the other one on my own opinion on costumes of a recent theatre production. If I get through all that I have to go in for a panel interview with two interviewers (I hate interviews <.<). I'm going up against at least 2000 other applicants there are only 10 places at most in this course >_< but it would be so much fun if they accept me :]

other than all this my ex girlfriend is giving me a lot of trouble at the moment but I wont go in to details all you really need to know is, she is not exactly mentally sound. Ill leave that conversation for another time because I don't have the time to go into detail about the whole relationship/break up but she has helped me to work out who my real friends are during all this bs and for that I am greatful for.

I have eaten about 500-600cals today worked most it off visiting my possible future career path today with my mate K. The art academy was holding an open day today so we both met up in the city and explored the canvas together, had a lot of fun the lectures and students are really nice and helpful ^__^.

That's pretty much everything, now to get back to my homework xD I just really wanted to let you know that I havent forgottern you guys I'm just a tad bit busy at the moment ill try and post at least once a week if not once every two weeks <3
 

 I hope you all had a good weekend~!!

               lots of love,

                                                                                                     Anna<3

I like the rain :]

Its official I have a cold <.<  I wanted to see Mika today but I cant because I now have a cold so no visit for me this week... which is okay, I wouldn't want her to get sicker because of me.. but my other Friend L gave her a kiss and a hug from me ^__^ just wish I could give it to her in person...

I spent yesterday playing video games and watching movies with my male Friend Ry he is such a sweetie, a rare gem of the male gender.. too bad he doesn't swing my way xD finished re-reading Harry potter and the philosopher stone after Ry went home chambers here I come ^__^.

I spent today out shopping with L it was nice catching up with her and hearing how Mika is, a little update on Mika she has lost almost all her hair due to the chemo but she is still as cheerful and bright as ever according to L which is good to hear :)  

My Intake

Tuesday

Breakfast:

nothing

Lunch:

small portion of four cheeses pasta- 92.1cals

Afternoon snack:

2 crackers with cheese- 120cals

Dinner:

chicken wrap-293cals

Total: 505cals

Burned:

just under 2hour walk-533cals

Left over: minus 28cals

Today

Breakfast:

nothing

Lunch:

nothing

Afternoon snack:

katsu chicken sushi-325cals

diet coke-ocals

Dinner:

chicken wrap-293cals

orange juice-110cals

Total:728cals

Burned:

2 hour walk-710cals

Left over:18cals

Comment Replies 

@S.- thanks for the suggestion, I do like cooking, I think they might like that ill have to suggest that to my parents next time :] xxx

Thanks for reading,

                       Lots of love Anna<3

I'm back!! n_n (part two)

(Part one here)
Supanova (Pop culture convention)was a lot of fun for the most part.staturday was mostly spent waiting in line for Tom Feltons/Draco Malfoys autograph. Things I've learnt while waiting in line for Tom Felton/Draco Malfoy autograph. It can take two hours to eat lunch, although if I was him and I saw the large mob of people waiting for him I would take 2 hour  to eat my lunch too. I feel sorry for him the amount of people that was waiting to see him was ridiculous, he deserves a holiday after all these conventions. A lady behind me in line pretty much knew every small detail about his life and was trying to get out of one of the volunteers to tell her where he was staying so she could go stalk  him (if Tom  Feltons goes missing she is to blame). made a couple of mates while waiting in line  for his autograph played paddy-cake with a lot of people. made jokes about what we might ask him when we got his autograph. He was worth the wait, he was a real gentleman he apologised for making as wait and was rather nice guy to talk to ^__^

Axel - Kingdom hearts 2 (console game)

In regard to the "for the most part", my ex was being a complete bitch towards me. (lets call her A)  A dragged my best Friend away from me on Sunday, I understand the reason why but still I didn't see her again for seven hours so yea don't know how I feel about my best Friend at the moment but I do believe her when she said she did try to find me. I had fun with my other close Friend G and his girlfriend S. S is the cutest and shyest girl you could ever meet she was to shy to talk to me directly so she kept talking to me through G if any of you know who Hinata is from Naruto she is exactly like her only even shyer. 

 Grell - Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler (Japanese anime/manga)

On Sunday I cosplayed Grell from Kuroshitsuji/Black butler it was a lot of fun, I had two Sebastian's following me instead of the other way round xD. on Saturday I dressed up as Axel from Kingdom hearts 2 again a lot of fun my wig fell apart about mid day, my ex made fun of it on FB, but what can I say I run out of hair spray there was no way I could fix it at the con anyways so :P. I bumped into Demxy and Shion I met at Waicon earlier in the year and again had a lot of fun joking around/catching up. the cosplay competition was a lot of fun to watch, John our MC is always a laugh to watch perform. John and the crowd made Drew one of the stage hands take his shirt off and got us to say "sexy sexy drew" xDD so funny, he had a six pack he is the cutest Asian boy I saw all weekend. I got followed by Harley Quinn all day and didn't realise it xD she wanted my photo and I wanted a hug from her, I found her in the end and got a hug and she got her photo :) overall it was a good weekend with a few mishaps ^__^

 Hinata - Naruto (Japanese anime/manga)

and that what I have been doing these last seven days that is note worthy for here.

hope you are all well and have had a good weekend :)
Lots of love,
            Anna <3

i feel like a bloody Psychologist at the moment....

Yesterday two friends of mine got into a stupid fight, (let’s call them B and k) K was annoyed because B didn't hug them when they greeted each other, K didn’t say anything until B was on her way to my house. She sent her an angry text asking why B didn’t hug her when they bumped into each other. So B sent her a reply along the lines of "you told me you didn't like been hugged, I would have hugged you if you asked...” so K got even angrier because she disagrees with that statement. So now there friendship is in ruins over of all things not receiving a hug.

Now to explain why I feel like a Psychologist because of this, due to the fact that K has chronic depression (diagnosed when she for 13). I've known K since we were small children so I understand a lot of her mood swings and random burst of anger. B has only really been close to her for half a year and I do not think B realised that K has depression or no one has told her. So I had to explain to her that although she is pushing her away, it’s in relation to her depression it’s not  exactly what she really wants and when she calms down and rationally thinks about this K may realise that it’s not worth destroying a friendship over. People do make mistakes this is a part of life, so I had to cheer B up and explain to her, what depression actually is and what its effects on moods and so forth are so that she may understand next time what is really going on when she starts getting angry/annoyed or suddenly switches to extremely happy in 5 seconds flat.

After which K pretty much took her anger out on me, after I asked how her day was. but that's okay I know she was just venting at me, not actually angry at me. she knows ill listen to her and try to help her with any problems she may be having. So yea that’s why I feel like a Psychologist at the moment...I know way too much about mental disorders...

Yesterday ended with one of my close friends Mika been diagnosed with childhood leukaemia at 16, we all kind of knew in the back of our minds this was coming but it was still quite a shock to actually know what was making her so sick and tired for such a long time. Especially after just last year with another girl we both knew and were close to, Bec died from the same turmoil illness at 15, she didn't even make it to her 16th birthday. Mika will be starting chemo this weekend. At the moment the cancer is not life threatening but that can change... I just pray it doesn't, I really don’t want to lose her as well...

today she decided to cut her gorgeous long hair, short as it will fall out over time with the chemo... it makes me so sick and angry that kids younger than me are dying from horrible illnesses, abuse etc.. I just wish this would stop happening only last year Bec died I don’t want to lose another friend to cancer it’s just wrong they are both so young it’s just not right....

ill post an update on my intake and such later I'm just not in the mood to do so at the moment...
thanks for reading,
          lots of love Anna<3