Australian Summers and odd Revelations

 Hi Girls,
Australian summers are so irritating I dislike this time of year so much. I know funny an Australian that hates summer but honestly if you lived in Australia from december till march/late April you would know why I hate it so much. the heat just takes away all your energy all you want to do is lie on the floor under the air-con and never get up. 

which is one of the reasons I haven't been on here at all this month its too hot to do anything but i am trying, the heat is just a bit much at times. I will post a intake and exercise post later on this week I have changed my routine a bit in hope of reaching a my new goal weight but ill talk to you about that later.

 

-Name's Have Been Changed-

I have noticed recently that my freind Hanna and I have a really odd habit of talking about eating disorders when we are together no matter what we may be doing we always end up talking about them at one point during conversation with one another its a strange thing we do when we are together... I dont really know what that says about us but its just a strange thing I just recently notice we do.

other than that there is not a lot I can think of I need to tell you other than I kissed B on the check last week and I don't know if I have made a mistake or not by doing that but he still texts me so I dont think I have made a complete fool of myself yet..

any ways good byes for now
~Love Anna.

Sorry Girls Going on a 6 week Hiatus

Hi girls, 

I'm sorry to say but for the next six weeks I won’t be on blogger at all, this is not something I wanted to do to you girls but I really do have to concentrate on one thing only at this time which is completing my Uni work to the best of my ability's.

(Start of Uni/school work rant, skip if you wish)

My deadlines are really stupid and twisted I have to have all my theory work (3.5 x 1200 word essays <.<) completed over the next four weeks. My practical work needs to be completed by November 22nd (day of fashion parade to be exact) at the latest (the real due date being 16th November). On top of all that I have exams and still have to turn up to classes that for some really stupid reasons are still running during my exams who the hell decided that? This is my final year of study, thank god :] 

Besides all that I have to write two more essays at 500 words each for my application to do Costume Design at the Arts Academy I may have mention to you girls ages ago..  update on the Arts Academy application I sent in last month, they accepted it :]. I currently have an interview the week after my exams so excited about it :D.

(end of Uni/School work rant)

I'm happy to announce that I am officially 60kg/132.27 lbs I am so close to my October goal of weighing less than 60kg/132.27 lbs by the start of November. I have went from 64kg down to 60kg in just over a month :] I'm quite happy with myself as you can see xD. I also officially went from a size 12au/10us/12uk/ to a 10au/8us/10uk in dresses/pants and not too sure about tops yet but still rather happy with myself :]

I will be making some posts up to post while I am away, so if you have any questions or suggestions about what those should be please don't hesitate to tell me because at this point my head is pretty much packed full of fashion info and that's about it. I literately have no ideas what to write about so please give me some ideas ^__^

That is all I really have to tell you I shall see you around the start of December hopefully with good news in regards to Uni and my application *fingers crossed*,

                                                                                        love always, Anna <3

 

  Comments Reply

@Karolin - Thanks for your support, I am currently answering your questions in a separate post as we speak so hopefully you won’t have to wait too much longer to see the answers to the questions you asked so long ago, sorry for the late reply ^__^  xx

@FlorD'morte - Don't worry about it, I understand what you meant to say anyway xD, thank you for your support and sorry for the late reply : ] xx

a little bit busy

Sorry I haven't been posting recently, I'm just a tad bit caught up in a lot things at the moment and don't really have the time to post as often as I once did.

 
I'm currently back at uni continuing my 2nd semester of fashion  design,  I'm in my 2nd year of study so its a bit hands on. The other second years and myself are still in the process of organising our fashion parade for the end of year. I don't know if I've mentioned it or not but our theme is "Punk Cabaret" (a combination of burlesque and punk) we have to design and construct 4 outfits which consists of one show stopper and 3 full outfits. On top of that we have to so a lot of organising which consists of fund raising, sorting out models, make up/hair, finding a place to have the parade. food/drinks, music/performers/lighting and staging/seating for the parade. We are about half way through sorting out most of these things we only have left music,catering, fund raising, models and make up/hair.

I'm also currently in the processes of applying to do costume design at one of two performing arts academy's in Australia which is keeping me on my toes. I have to construct a portfolio consisting of everything I've done over the last couple of years from garments to costumes to beading/jewellery pieces to millinery work and design processes I've gone through to create each piece. Along with two 500 word essays on why I would like to study costume design and the other one on my own opinion on costumes of a recent theatre production. If I get through all that I have to go in for a panel interview with two interviewers (I hate interviews <.<). I'm going up against at least 2000 other applicants there are only 10 places at most in this course >_< but it would be so much fun if they accept me :]

other than all this my ex girlfriend is giving me a lot of trouble at the moment but I wont go in to details all you really need to know is, she is not exactly mentally sound. Ill leave that conversation for another time because I don't have the time to go into detail about the whole relationship/break up but she has helped me to work out who my real friends are during all this bs and for that I am greatful for.

I have eaten about 500-600cals today worked most it off visiting my possible future career path today with my mate K. The art academy was holding an open day today so we both met up in the city and explored the canvas together, had a lot of fun the lectures and students are really nice and helpful ^__^.

That's pretty much everything, now to get back to my homework xD I just really wanted to let you know that I havent forgottern you guys I'm just a tad bit busy at the moment ill try and post at least once a week if not once every two weeks <3
 

 I hope you all had a good weekend~!!

               lots of love,

                                                                                                     Anna<3

almost missed seeing the midnight showing xD

Tuesday, my best freind S needed to buy her tickets for the midnight showing so we both went to the cinema at around 11am. When  we got to the counter S was very lucky to get one of the final tickets, the only problem was that S was in a different cinema to the rest of the group so I changed tickets so she wouldn't be alone. that's when we discovered that the showing was Tuesday midnight not Wednesday midnight xD so lucky we went in on tuesday..

So my friends and I decided to get dress up as different characters from the book for the showing such as Tonks, Harry, Ginny ,Luna and Draco (I dressed up as Draco). When we got there my freind who was dressed up as Harry saw only a glimpse of me coming up the stairs and just came running up to me with her arms wide open screaming Draco Malfoy~!! at the top of her lungs.  I had no idea who she was until she calmed down from being an overly excited fangirl ^__^ she then told me I make a very convincing boy xD

The movie was enjoyable, yes they had skipped a lot of the book but it was still a wonderful ending to the movie saga. I do wish they kept the epilogue the same as the book you only really see a glimpse of the other children which kinda annoyed me there are other things I could mention more but that would be spoiling it for other people so I wont.

My freind who dress up as Harry did not enjoy it, she was not remotely pleased with the way they skipped a lot of the book... My only recommendation to those that have read the books is to see this final movie as a separate entity from the books that way you will enjoy it a lot more...than my freind Harry did she was in a silent rage by the end of the film o_O (very scary sight to see coming from someone dressed as Harry potter after witnessing the wrath of Harry Potter in said film)

My intake

Tuesday

Breakfast:

small yoghurt-70cals

Lunch:

 nothing

Dinner:

KFC chips-272cals

half KFC crusher-124.5cals

Chicken katsu sushi-325cals

Total: 792cals

Burned:

5 hours walking around aimlessly with friends- 1775cals

Left over: minus 983cals

Wednesday

Breakfast:

vanilla cupcakes-140cals

Lunch:

small portion of seasoned chips-33cals

2 party pies-116cals

Dinner:

four cheeses pasta-230cals

small glass of sunkist-47.5cals

Total: 337cals

Burned:

2 hour walk- 710cals

Left over:minus 373cals

thanks for reading,
                lots of love Anna<3

Comment Replies

@S- I hope you enjoy watching the final movie, when ever you get the chance to see it ^__^, thanks for your support :] xx

Monday happiness :D

Today was a lovely day, I was able to buy one of the last tickets to see Harry Potter and The Deathly Hollows Part 2 for the midnight screening ^__^ this really made my day :] there was a prominent bounce in my step after that. I am so glad I thought I wouldn't be able to get them... I would still have went to the normal screening times, but I really wanted to see the final movie at midnight because every other movie  I wasn't able to make it for the midnight screening.... I'm so happy :]

My Intake

Breakfast:

nothing

Lunch:

Pumpkin soup-95cals

Afternoon snack:

hot chocolate- 120cals

Dinner:

4 small slices of roast pork with gravy-143cals

roast potatos-90cals

steamed veggies- 60cals

small glass of orange juice-65cals

Total:508cals

Burned:

2 hour walk-710cals

Left over: minus 202cals

its sad to think that Wednesday night it will all come to an end, I'm sad but excited to see how the final movie depicts the last moments of the book. I know they have screwed up a lot in regards to certain parts of the books but I still would like to see the final movie any ways. its hard for me to comprehend that in just one more day,10 years of my life will come to an end in just one final movie...

pleases excuse the over dramatics of this post, Harry Potter is one of my all time favourite books and I'm just a bit excited and sad at the same time that its all ending...

thanks for reading,

          lots of love Anna<3 

I have internet ^__^

Hi guys, sorry for the lack of posts this week, the land line was down in our area for what ever reason which meant no internet for a week while they fixed the problem but it is back and running now :)

Tuesday I spent the day cleaning out my work room which is a very big job I have been dreading to do every since the begin of the holidays. It really was one huge mess of fabric, card, paint and everything else you can think of that can land on the floor or all over tables/chairs/etc.. While I was sorting through said mess I heard a really loud screeching sound from the front of my house. you can probably guess what happened, two cars had hit each other going round the round about next to our house. so I told my dad and he checked then went an called the police. the people are okay but the cars are both total wreaks. a lot of people speed up coming pass our house so it was bound to happen at one point or another but its quite lucky that no other car got involved in the accident, as one of the cars was completely blocking the road...

Tuesday Intake

Breakfast:

nothing

Lunch:

roll with meat- 219cal

lemonade-110cals

Afternoon snack:

2 minute noodles-278cals

half a diet coke-0cals

Dinner:

4 party pies-232cals

1 small sausage roll-260cals

half a diet coke-0

Total: 1099cals

Burned:

cleaning-2183cals

2 hour walk-710cals

Left over: minus 1746cals

Wednesday again was spent cleaning up the work room as yea got a little off track after the accident...  My best male freind B came by for a visit I've missed hanging out with him so much, the last time we saw each other was three months ago. It was nice that he came round to see me he missed me two, we chatted and played video games for most of the afternoon :]

Wednesday Intake

Breakfast:

nothing

Lunch: 

burger with cheese onion tomato sauce white bread-394cal

orange juice-110cals

Dinner:

home made mash potatoes-111cals

glass of coke-70cals

Total:686cals

Burned:

cleaning-640cals

2 hour walk-710cals

Left over: minus 664cals

Thursday I was shifting through a box of art books I found yesterday at the back of the work room, it was quite interesting to find that I still had art books from when I was 6 years old. God those drawings were so awful comparing to what you thought of them as a child xD it was nice looking back thought all the art books and seeing how far Ive come drawing wise.

 

 Thursday Intake

Breakfast:

2minute noodles-

glass of oj-

Lunch: 

small portion of chicken Kiev-

wedges-

glass of oj-

Dinner:

4 slices of pizza-

glass of coke-

Total: 1687cals

Burned:

4 hour walk - 1431cals

Left over: 254cals

Friday was my older brothers 29th birthday so he had a couple of mates over and we had a fish and chips with chocolate cake for dessert. I made my sibling a card with a chocobo from Final fantasy series on it and bought him some new business shirts for his work. after that my freind S came round with her laptop and wireless adaptor so we could geek out and watch the Harry potter premier live on youtube xD yea we are cool like that :3

Friday Intake

Breakfast:

nothing

Lunch:

left over pizza-786cals

Afternoon snack:

large hot chocolate-210cals

Dinner:

chicken wrap-293cals

Total: 1289ca;s

Burned:

3 hour walk-1065cals

Left over:224cals

Saturday I went out for coffee with my aunty, her mother and her two girls. It was a nice occasion her little girls are spoiled rotten the oldest. G who is 10 kept interrupting conversions at the table and asking for a mobile phone every couple of minutes. My aunty had enough so she went and bought her one. only to be asked in Sanity (music and DVD store) could she have these two Justin brier cds at $40aud. seriously her mum just spent $94aud on a phone now she wants cds. the little one wasn't much better but all she really wanted was ice-cream as little kids do, overall it was a nice afternoon

Saturday Intake

Breakfast:

nothing

Lunch:

small portion of chips-120cals

Dinner:

2 chicken kebabs-225cals

glass of oj-110cals

Total: 455cals

Burned:

3 hour walk- 1065cals

Left over: minus 610cals 

Sunday was spent catching up on facebook, blogs and other places of the internet until midday which is when my family went down to my aunt's for lunch. spent the rest of the afternoon playing with my little cousins and watching some movie I don't know the name of with my older cousins that had a lot of mindless destruction and blood a lot of blood.

 Sunday Intake

Breakfast:

nothing

Lunch: 

2 hamburger patties-280cals

2 slices of multigrain bread-220cals

a slice of cheese-113cals

red onions-15cals

tomato sauce-15cals

Dinner:

small portion of roast chicken-120cals

2 hashbrowns-260cals

glass of oj-110cals

Total:  1254cals

Burned:

playing with kids-323cals

2 hour walk-710cals

Left over:221cals

  

lots of love,

                   Anna<3

I'm back!! n_n (part two)

(Part one here)
Supanova (Pop culture convention)was a lot of fun for the most part.staturday was mostly spent waiting in line for Tom Feltons/Draco Malfoys autograph. Things I've learnt while waiting in line for Tom Felton/Draco Malfoy autograph. It can take two hours to eat lunch, although if I was him and I saw the large mob of people waiting for him I would take 2 hour  to eat my lunch too. I feel sorry for him the amount of people that was waiting to see him was ridiculous, he deserves a holiday after all these conventions. A lady behind me in line pretty much knew every small detail about his life and was trying to get out of one of the volunteers to tell her where he was staying so she could go stalk  him (if Tom  Feltons goes missing she is to blame). made a couple of mates while waiting in line  for his autograph played paddy-cake with a lot of people. made jokes about what we might ask him when we got his autograph. He was worth the wait, he was a real gentleman he apologised for making as wait and was rather nice guy to talk to ^__^

Axel - Kingdom hearts 2 (console game)

In regard to the "for the most part", my ex was being a complete bitch towards me. (lets call her A)  A dragged my best Friend away from me on Sunday, I understand the reason why but still I didn't see her again for seven hours so yea don't know how I feel about my best Friend at the moment but I do believe her when she said she did try to find me. I had fun with my other close Friend G and his girlfriend S. S is the cutest and shyest girl you could ever meet she was to shy to talk to me directly so she kept talking to me through G if any of you know who Hinata is from Naruto she is exactly like her only even shyer. 

 Grell - Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler (Japanese anime/manga)

On Sunday I cosplayed Grell from Kuroshitsuji/Black butler it was a lot of fun, I had two Sebastian's following me instead of the other way round xD. on Saturday I dressed up as Axel from Kingdom hearts 2 again a lot of fun my wig fell apart about mid day, my ex made fun of it on FB, but what can I say I run out of hair spray there was no way I could fix it at the con anyways so :P. I bumped into Demxy and Shion I met at Waicon earlier in the year and again had a lot of fun joking around/catching up. the cosplay competition was a lot of fun to watch, John our MC is always a laugh to watch perform. John and the crowd made Drew one of the stage hands take his shirt off and got us to say "sexy sexy drew" xDD so funny, he had a six pack he is the cutest Asian boy I saw all weekend. I got followed by Harley Quinn all day and didn't realise it xD she wanted my photo and I wanted a hug from her, I found her in the end and got a hug and she got her photo :) overall it was a good weekend with a few mishaps ^__^

 Hinata - Naruto (Japanese anime/manga)

and that what I have been doing these last seven days that is note worthy for here.

hope you are all well and have had a good weekend :)
Lots of love,
            Anna <3

Intro of sorts

I've always been insecure about my body ever since my final years of primary school, the "popular" girls always bullied me heavily pointing out my flaws and laughing about them. this lead me to stare at my reflection in the mirror for hours, looking at the flaws these girls had pointed out about my body . high school was quite the same even though it wasn't heavy, for most of it I only weighed 32 kg (70lbs), I had long hair that reached past my bottom, but I cut it off because I couldn't take the consent bullying I received because of it, I never really ate lunch or recesses at school I always gave it away to Friends.

things were alot better after I graduated high school, until I went out with my first boyfriend then I started to hate my body just a little bit more, up until I broke up with him over some things I wont mention here encase he somehow finds this blog.I cut my hair even shorter after we broke up instead of doing something I knew I would regret later on.

I've put on a lot of weight since then 32kg more to be exact (64kg/142lbs), (mostly due to my former girlfriends, mother who was really insistent on giving me large portions because of how small I apparently looked to her.),  I can no longer see my ribs but I can still see my hip bones which does make me slightly happy about my body but only slightly. I wish to one day see my ribs poking threw my skin again as they did in high school...

I'm currently studying fashion design and really do feel like the biggest girl in my class, it hurts allot to be the heaviest girl out of my group of friends I have at uni, I don't really feel I belong in this course with all theses size 0 girls surrounding me day in day out. I'm currently completing my 2nd year of study and just don't feel like I belong with these girls, don't get me wrong I adore the course this is what I want to do as a career I just feel that in order to fit in with this career path I've chosen I need to lose the weight I've gained since my last relationship...

random facts about me you might be interested in knowing:-

- I have short violet hair and hazel eyes
- I love winter, the rain, the cold and everything about the season
- I am a cosplayer (follow the link if you don't understand)
- I am a bit of a geek I love anime/manga and gaming when I have the time
- I adore Japanese fashion and hair styles
- I love dressing up
- I am Bisexual
- I love to paint and draw
- I love the outdoors
- smiles and compliments always make my day (even if I don't fully believe them)
- I have dyslexia so pleases excuse any spelling or gramma mistakes I may have not noticed in my posts..

blog post inspired by .Until The End.

~thanks for reading :),
             lots of love Anna xoxo