Happy New Years

 Sorry I have been away for so long, as for usual things came up all at once that couldn't be avoided..

I have completed my studies at the start of this month  I am now officially a qualified fashion designer and technician. I received my certificate and academic record just last week I got full credits I really don't know how I survived until this point its still very surreal to me that my studies are officially over I still have no idea what I am going to be doing in the future let alone next year...

I had my interview with the arts academy in November and I can honestly say I am horrible at  answering interview questions... they liked my work very much they were fascinated by some of the pieces I had done but unfortunately I didn't get in.... I am okay about it I just wish they would tell you what you did wrong so you know how you could improve.. Ill definitely try again next year at least this time round I know what to expect during the interview.

during December I worked at retail store with B a guy friend I may have mentioned at one point or another. I can honestly say if I was to ever date a boy again it would most likely be him. he is literally the only boy I trust outside my immediate family. he is my best Friend we are always in constant contact with one another always striving to make the other laugh and we get along really well is what I am trying to say. I can see the possibility of us dating at one point or another in the future....

Christmas was intriguing My mum and I went dress shopping for Christmas day while we were doing that I found out I am actually now a size 8 AU/UK (US 6) instead of a 10AU/UK (US 8). my mum got really worried about it she kept mentioning it to all my relatives so I mostly spent my Christmas day reassuring my family that I am not on a diet or anorexic or over stressed/worked etc... the  most interesting thing about that day was hearing various members of my family sharing their thoughts on EDs and body image. I also found out one of my aunty is/was anorexic which didn't surprise me much other than that Christmas was enjoyable time even with all those questions flying around the dinner table.

As for new years eve I will be spending it with B for the most part and with my family for the other part.  which is truly is a good ending to a year full of ups and downs. That is pretty much all I have to say so I will take this opportunity before I go out to wish you all a happy new year~!!   stay safe and most immortally have fun where ever you are~!! lots of love Anna <3 see you all in the new year xx

Hi girls,
spring is here in Australia, winter gone again for another year.

I've been invited to a party in November, my ex-girlfriend is going to be attending aswell and personally I want to look way better than her. which wouldn't take much as she is obese and I am not been a bitch by that she is 155cm tall and weighs 223kg/491.63lbs. When we were dating I sometimes went with her to her doctor appointments, her doctor was getting really desperate about her losing weight that's how bad it was getting... my ex never really took what the doctor was saying seriously.

She got really angry when I agreed with her doctor over her (I didn't call her fat or anything like that I just told her I was generally scared of losing her to health complications caused by her disorder) she couldn't understand why we were both worried about her weight. its funny thinking about it we were complete polar opposites she was short/fat and I was average height/"healthy" weight in comparison the one thing we both had in common was our eds she ate too much and I ate restrictively/too little.

but anyway I've strayed pretty far away from the point which is by November:

• I want to weight less than 60kg/132.27lbs
• I would like my waist to be smaller.
• I want to see a gap between my thighs
• I want to see my ribs fully again before home cooked Italian meals were introduced to me

In relation to my ex-girlfriend I never want to go back there ever. seriously she is the definition of  crazy ass Bitch. I've met some far from sane people in my life, out of all of them she is diffidently at the top of the ladder for crazy. I'll tell you the full story another time its way to big and complicated to put into words at the moment.

My Intake this week 

12th September

total intake - 394cals

burned - 28km run, 1488cals (over did it)

left over - minus 1590cals

13th September

total intake - 617cals

burned - 2 hour walk,722cals

left over - minus 105cals

14th September

total intake:867cals

burned:2 hour walk.722cals

left over:145cals

 

15th September

total intake:711cals

burned: 10km jog,722cals

left over:minus 11

16th September

total intake:765cals

burned:3 hour walk,1083cals

left over:minus 318cals

17th September

total intake:683cals

burned:2 hour jog,868cals

left over:minus 185cals

I have to say I am pretty surprised that there are 10 of you now, I never really thought when I started this that any one would ever sit down and read my ramblings, Thank you for all your support and your comments :]
                    lots of love,
                                    Anna<3

kind of amused

I was sick last week so I didn't have the energy to go on here and make a post for you guys.

Today was an exhausting day I've never felt so tired in my life but it was a lovely day I enjoyed catching up with the girls.. I wasn't at uni most of last week so I missed a bunch of things but I think I'm up to speed with almost everything. which I thank my close freind De for :], she kept me up to speed with everything I missed last week so all I have to finish off is a portfolio for one of my lectures. I had around 600cals today and that's really there is to say about today :]

I find it amusing that someone out there has created a facebook account with the same name as this blog xD. I just want to say that's she's not me encase your wondering. I don't mind that she created an account with this name its just I want to make it clear we are two different people that's all[same goes for all the other facebook accounts/groups/pages/likes and any other website sharing this name]. I do have a fb account but that's under my real name, I wont give that away due to privacy issues but I do have an email account for this blog if you ever want to ask a question or talk :] which is ana_pandora@hotmail.com.au feel free to message me  sometime.

I will be making a body of posts for you guys in order to keep this blog afloat while I'm dealing with work and other things in my life.

Lots of Love,
                     Anna<3

Comment Replies

@QraZee: Sorry for the late reply, its good to meet another lover of rain ^__^, male friends are cool but female friends are easier to talk to about girl stuff xD

I like the rain :]

Its official I have a cold <.<  I wanted to see Mika today but I cant because I now have a cold so no visit for me this week... which is okay, I wouldn't want her to get sicker because of me.. but my other Friend L gave her a kiss and a hug from me ^__^ just wish I could give it to her in person...

I spent yesterday playing video games and watching movies with my male Friend Ry he is such a sweetie, a rare gem of the male gender.. too bad he doesn't swing my way xD finished re-reading Harry potter and the philosopher stone after Ry went home chambers here I come ^__^.

I spent today out shopping with L it was nice catching up with her and hearing how Mika is, a little update on Mika she has lost almost all her hair due to the chemo but she is still as cheerful and bright as ever according to L which is good to hear :)  

My Intake

Tuesday

Breakfast:

nothing

Lunch:

small portion of four cheeses pasta- 92.1cals

Afternoon snack:

2 crackers with cheese- 120cals

Dinner:

chicken wrap-293cals

Total: 505cals

Burned:

just under 2hour walk-533cals

Left over: minus 28cals

Today

Breakfast:

nothing

Lunch:

nothing

Afternoon snack:

katsu chicken sushi-325cals

diet coke-ocals

Dinner:

chicken wrap-293cals

orange juice-110cals

Total:728cals

Burned:

2 hour walk-710cals

Left over:18cals

Comment Replies 

@S.- thanks for the suggestion, I do like cooking, I think they might like that ill have to suggest that to my parents next time :] xxx

Thanks for reading,

                       Lots of love Anna<3

Happier :)

Today was a lot more better than yesterday, I cringe thinking about the thoughts going through my head yesterday it was like a muddled blur of horribleness but I'm glad its out fluttering in the wind not distorting my mind.

I spent most of today helping my mum around the house, we talked a lot about a whole range of things from problems, news, my friends, life, gossip, opinions and past memories (mostly to do with my brother when he was younger). I love my mum she is one of the most funniest caring strongest ladies I know.. I love my dad too he is as stubborn as a mule and very blunt about things but I wouldn't want another dad for the world no matter how much we argue on things... ^__^

Most of the conversation with my mum was about my older brother moving out sometime later this year - early next year.. I miss him already.. He is my big brother and my best/closest Friend I'm going to miss our stupid, hyper, loud, cheerful, craziness we usually share when we hang out together and all our inside sibling only jokes and so much more.. but I knew this was going to happen eventually I just didn't realise how soon it would be... (oh and my mums not forcing him out this is my brother own decision encase that how its seems in print form)

My Intake

Breakfast:

half 2minute noodles-69.5cals

Lunch:

a quarter a hot chocolate-52.5cals

two oreo-120cals

Dinner:

Chips with some salad-213cals

half a small glass of coke-35cals

Dessert:

4 squares of chocolate-112cals

Total: 620cals

Burned:

cleaning- 732cals

Left over: minus 112cals

That's pretty much it other than I think I'm developing a cold again

thanks for reading,

                   lots of love Anna <3

almost missed seeing the midnight showing xD

Tuesday, my best freind S needed to buy her tickets for the midnight showing so we both went to the cinema at around 11am. When  we got to the counter S was very lucky to get one of the final tickets, the only problem was that S was in a different cinema to the rest of the group so I changed tickets so she wouldn't be alone. that's when we discovered that the showing was Tuesday midnight not Wednesday midnight xD so lucky we went in on tuesday..

So my friends and I decided to get dress up as different characters from the book for the showing such as Tonks, Harry, Ginny ,Luna and Draco (I dressed up as Draco). When we got there my freind who was dressed up as Harry saw only a glimpse of me coming up the stairs and just came running up to me with her arms wide open screaming Draco Malfoy~!! at the top of her lungs.  I had no idea who she was until she calmed down from being an overly excited fangirl ^__^ she then told me I make a very convincing boy xD

The movie was enjoyable, yes they had skipped a lot of the book but it was still a wonderful ending to the movie saga. I do wish they kept the epilogue the same as the book you only really see a glimpse of the other children which kinda annoyed me there are other things I could mention more but that would be spoiling it for other people so I wont.

My freind who dress up as Harry did not enjoy it, she was not remotely pleased with the way they skipped a lot of the book... My only recommendation to those that have read the books is to see this final movie as a separate entity from the books that way you will enjoy it a lot more...than my freind Harry did she was in a silent rage by the end of the film o_O (very scary sight to see coming from someone dressed as Harry potter after witnessing the wrath of Harry Potter in said film)

My intake

Tuesday

Breakfast:

small yoghurt-70cals

Lunch:

 nothing

Dinner:

KFC chips-272cals

half KFC crusher-124.5cals

Chicken katsu sushi-325cals

Total: 792cals

Burned:

5 hours walking around aimlessly with friends- 1775cals

Left over: minus 983cals

Wednesday

Breakfast:

vanilla cupcakes-140cals

Lunch:

small portion of seasoned chips-33cals

2 party pies-116cals

Dinner:

four cheeses pasta-230cals

small glass of sunkist-47.5cals

Total: 337cals

Burned:

2 hour walk- 710cals

Left over:minus 373cals

thanks for reading,
                lots of love Anna<3

Comment Replies

@S- I hope you enjoy watching the final movie, when ever you get the chance to see it ^__^, thanks for your support :] xx

Monday happiness :D

Today was a lovely day, I was able to buy one of the last tickets to see Harry Potter and The Deathly Hollows Part 2 for the midnight screening ^__^ this really made my day :] there was a prominent bounce in my step after that. I am so glad I thought I wouldn't be able to get them... I would still have went to the normal screening times, but I really wanted to see the final movie at midnight because every other movie  I wasn't able to make it for the midnight screening.... I'm so happy :]

My Intake

Breakfast:

nothing

Lunch:

Pumpkin soup-95cals

Afternoon snack:

hot chocolate- 120cals

Dinner:

4 small slices of roast pork with gravy-143cals

roast potatos-90cals

steamed veggies- 60cals

small glass of orange juice-65cals

Total:508cals

Burned:

2 hour walk-710cals

Left over: minus 202cals

its sad to think that Wednesday night it will all come to an end, I'm sad but excited to see how the final movie depicts the last moments of the book. I know they have screwed up a lot in regards to certain parts of the books but I still would like to see the final movie any ways. its hard for me to comprehend that in just one more day,10 years of my life will come to an end in just one final movie...

pleases excuse the over dramatics of this post, Harry Potter is one of my all time favourite books and I'm just a bit excited and sad at the same time that its all ending...

thanks for reading,

          lots of love Anna<3